Today is the 20th May 2008 . Normal day, but ended in tears . Well, not really tears, sadden heart ? Or maybe more disappointment . Got back cost accounting test paper, i failed . The only failure in class, the only one other, i don't know, from another class ? Or worse, from another course . Couldn't care much, retest next Wednesday . I'll try my best again . Yeah, i said i didn't study that time, i did actually . See ? I'm just dumb-ass . Anyway, i'll pass a day as another come . Come to think of it, i really feel that i don't belong to DAC . Everyone else is so bright and intelligent . Thinking back, i worked like hell with non-stop coffee every night to pass my 'O' Levels . Can't expect me to do that anymore . How i wish i could just be in a speeding car, letting it out . Whatever, no girls don't cry, so i shall not, and i never will . No one will see my tears .

Vesak Day yesterday, went out with Desmond during late afternoon for dinner . Honda Civic Type R with turbo . Low car and loud exhaust . Drove me up to Bukit Timah, had western dinner, then saw his friend, Kelvin and MJ, in a 350Z convertible . My god, they're in a car i've always wanted . Supposedly to drive me home after dinner, but he invited me to join them for coffee and stuffs . Since i've done my tutorials, why not ? Being with them is just, wow, haha . MJ was driving the 350Z, speeding on and off . Desmond follows, i felt so satisfied . Speed, that's what i need, that's why . Went west coast and had McDonald's, then head off to some shopping centre to meet up with Kelvin's brother and Da Sao . Haha, they were competing whose exhaust was louder when turning into the shopping centre's car park . Man, it's so funny ! Well, apparently i have no idea which shopping centre i went to, only knew there's British India, Best Denki, Coffee Bean & Tea Leaves and Chocz . After like 15 minutes of walking around the mall, we drove off to Mr. Bean, sat down, flipped the menu, but didn't wanna coz it's expensive . So, drove off for another time to some place where they know of very nice dessert . I had almond paste, my all time favourite, it was really nice, moreover it's served cold in a super hot day even though it's night time i'm still sweating like a pig . After dessert, went Pub33, bladder almost burst . Haha, had too much to drink i think, dinner's peppermint tea, McDonald's large coke ( i finish 3/4 of it ) and almond paste . Haha, then had 4 or 5 Martell Coke . Seating there, i watched them played a few rounds of pool game and card games . I must say they're very good at pool . Haha . Damn, i should have learn, it seems fun . I had fun with them, though they communicate in Hokkien and i don't really understand everything, but i had fun, especially the driving part . =) .

RWPS make-up lesson tomorrow after usual timetable . Feels yucky, or should i say i feel yucky about school . Wish me luck . Sigh .

No mood to do anything, no feeling to draw anything, no energy to work on anything . What's left . . . is the craving and need speed and comfort .